ITS ALMOST 2009

Its almost 2009 and im going to bring in the new year with an all to familiar feeling of distance, and seperation. Peppered with alittle stagnantness if thats a word. It should be...But it's not all bad because this time im bringing in the new year being loved, and well i smile on a regualr basis out here which is always a good thing these days.

People these days are so focused on the bad in situations including myself and well think its becasue we surround ourselves with depression and well horrible pictures. Look whats on the news constantly although old W getting socked with a pair of shoes is pretty hilarious there's still obviously people on his bad side....

Anyway ive been reading alot of books lately well at least all the ones sent out to me...and Plus i have a sweetr 12 string guitar out here so im gonna be writing tons again...

TODAY"S A GOOD DAY .......



11 ILY :

DEC 6th 2005.....at 0130

It has been exactly three years since my dear friend and roommate Thomas Seikert..felt so useless to take his own life with his own rifle exactly 3 feet away from where i sat..

I wish i could tell what was running through his head as he stuck the barrel in his mouth i really do. The worst part is i froze and just watched him crumble to the ground, i did nothing to help i did nothing try and save him.. although after a while i did get his pulse and a while i mean about 2 minutes and thirty seconds. And I'm sorry to say but those where the longest two minutes of my life and the next three months after that was the worst part of my life. I was 19...

For hat he did i was looked at for murder, attempted suicide, and well personally i felt i neglected the poor guy. I definitely didn't see it coming..


RIP - Thomas Seikert Dec 6th 2005 at 0130 Bayji, Iraq 20 yrs old